The Dark truth:
I know I make things look easy, but part of this “30 Days of 30” journey is about me facing my inner demons. Re-evaluating my relationships, my identity, my life path and some of the trauma’s and obstacles life has thrown me thus far… abandonment, neglect, betrayal, molestation, racism, changes in social class & status and why I no longer attach blackness to my identity but rather a characterization of trauma, a class system and a collective experience forced on Africans at large.
Welcome to my personal challenge.
“30 Days of 30” is a challenge I’ve created to further better myself as I approach a new age and the beginning of a new decade in 30 days!
Part of this challenge will be to chronicle and journal happenings as well as my thought process over the next 30 Days leading to my 30th Birthday on July 30th.
This will be 30 Days of Sober Reflections, Mindfulness, Wholistic Living, setting intentions and manifestations! How I plan to do this is yet unclear, but I do know it will largely involve me living my best life, doing my best to eat right, exercising and getting fit through yoga poses, calisthenics & hypertrophic workouts. It will also involve me deepening my love for myself and for others, while figuring out my ever evolving identity.
The road to 30 may not be as easy as I would hope it to be, but it definitely won’t be as daunting as it sounds. Unlike fasting in the months of Ramadan, I plan to afford myself more grace and mercy… apparently 30 is a social and creative number and I plan to foster my sociability and indulge in some mildly hedonistic activities, for what is life if it’s not meant to be enjoyed.
From my experience, I’ve learned to give myself more credit, and I’ve been learning how to let go of power and control only to recognize just how powerful I truly am and how boundless the universe truly is when we choose to live in a world without limits, unbound and unshackled by the pinnacles of our minds limitations. It is possible for you not to see some dreams/manifestations and blessings coming your way, but how humbling is it when the universe decides to reward you for good behavior… lol
I will dance, and I will sing at the top of my longs… I will overcome my meekness and dare to be social, and socially I will sip on my bubbly and wine with my pinky up in the air the same way Patrick taught me to do so, all sididdy and fancy like, and I will indulge myself in some dark liquor but never to the point of drunkenness because that would ratchet, and I’m too much of a gentlemen and way too classy to be a drunken mess.
I will persist with the Jibosky Diet, but I will also indulge myself in a few guilty pleasures, like if I’m craving a froyo.. the froyo I shall!!!
About 30:
“The numerology number 30 represents highly creative and social energies. 30 resonates with optimism. It can be thought of as a limitless 3 — the creative digit 3 followed by the unlimited digit 0. The numerology essence of the number 30 resonates with and supports creative expression and encourages it in others.”
– Affinity Numerology
